Enough…..

I never thought the moment would arrive..when I looked about at all the voices talking and said ENOUGH…

I have allowed myself to be defined by too many others..voices and thoughts that have no idea who I am…

Heard them say…all the things wrong with me….and how they knew how to fix me….

People..I have got to say…I am hanging with the wrong crowd….

I am a woman….who has lived a lifetime of abuse….

Abused by her father…

Married an abuser…

Had children who are abusers….

Dated an abuser….

Had friends who were abusers…

And to be honest..it is not something one can do much of anything about…

Because a precedent is set in your being..deep within you..set in concrete from the first blow…

You who have played in my playing field know just what I am talking about….

It is like wearing a neon green t shirt in a room filled with navy dress shirts…

It is like knowing you love peach ice cream…but always choosing the vanilla….

It is like being in an alien horror movie….and everyone else got their disappearing suit…except you….and the alien knows right were you are standing…..

Are you getting this…?

This insane path we must walk on….

The path of continually telling oneself that…”I am a good person”…..”I do things right”…”I am smart”….

And then be used again…because we are an easy target…

Easy to poke at the girl from the wrong side of the tracks….who smells..and her daddy used kerosene to kill the lice…

Would you admit that is your mommy…?

Or would you try your hardest to bury her…..

Any of this ringing a bell…..?

How about making them so deformed to the rest of the world….to hide your sin….

That they start doubting that God exists….yet they hold onto the words…”this is not my home”….

Or how about being nasty to people…because you had it rough….

This world is getting a taste of rough….

We do not need to go to another country to see hate piled on dessert trays…it sits in our living rooms…

It shakes children so their brains are mush….

It sets child against parent..brother against brother…your color over compassion…

It walks into schools…with machine guns and without a second thought…kills….

And sure violent video games do nothing right…….yeah I thought so…

It calls you names and then says…”just kidding”…”you are so sensitive”…..

And drugs should be legal…we should be able to do what we want…..ummmm…

Yet we can barely flush a toilet…or say thank you…or not insert our opinion when another is speaking…

ENOUGH…..

Not one more excuse…not one more juicy reasoning….not one more logical statement….

Enough…

WE know better….

The point is….sadly…we do not care…..

Do not worry..your friend or parent or child or partner or coworker…who does not smell right….they will be out of the picture soon…

And well honestly..you can get back to the Kardashians….they are waiting for you….

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~ by HopeGlenn on September 1, 2013.

2 Responses to “Enough…..”

  1. Powerful …

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  2. Really inspiring to read!

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