Schism…..Fallacy….

Fallacy…schism…something that is supposed to happen..but does not happen…

Everybody gets what is coming to them..whether good or bad…not true…

I did not want to believe it myself…thought hard work and persistence paid off..if those are even the right words…

Thought consistency in human spirit..personality..behavior would be given some sort of stance..acknowledgement…nope…

Thought evil would be snagged..shut down..and their ability to prosper would be halted..I was wrong….

Nobody gets what is coming to them..or what should come to them…and it now has come to making peace with some oddities that have now invaded my conscious thought…

The bottom has dropped out..fallen away…right when we thought things were going well..and we barely noticed….

We actually believe the illusion we look at… is reality..and have somehow pushed aside the truth..the real world..which is actually the true existence…sounds like one has entered the Matrix..huh…?

The words morals…ethics..are unknowns..mysteries…and barely make our thoughts…and we truly believe we know what is right for everyone else..and occupation of our time is consumed with making the undesirable disappear..so one can continue with the desirable…and the truly scary part of that statement..that thought..is the world..too many people around us..find the desirable to be that stinky garbage we held far away from us..now we cradle it like a newborn..all sweet and pretty…

The homeless person on the corner..bedraggled and struggling..yet looking well fed…so they must be okay…right..?

The person struggling to walk..stand upright…because the pain is through the roof..but hey..they can pop on into the doctor..maybe the emergency room..visit social services..and the world will be better…

The obsession of taking from people..because we have determined they do not deserve it..simple things like shelter..food..water..which at one time I believed was free..part of this great life we live..suddenly..or not so suddenly..it is packaged and bottled..wrapped in pretty packages..and it is selective who receives by people who provide illusions…and we believe they are right..we have allowed them to steal our hearts..our knowledge..

Lies spoken..and when caught..we bludgeon the revealer..the one who discovered..that one is false…and we are okay with that…

We are okay with turning parent against child..for simple reasons..mother did not cooperate..did not want to be slapped around..did not think she was a servant..thought she was more than a hole..for the man she signed a contract with…

We say love..and then in greatest display of false humility..turn away those in need…do not allow them to rest their head..feel safe..because we are so worried about our stuff..our things..and the labels we give ourselves to excuse our behavior..so one can push aside the person stumbling..and continue sitting like the fattened calf..preparing ourselves for slaughter…

We are okay..with selling our children into this world..for use as bargaining chips..prizes..revelations of identity..and are astounded to see they are like the movie stars on television..

We fear parenting..and who knows what that word means…because we want our children to like us..think we are great..be popular…think their barbs..names..curses are cute..because that is how everyone speaks now..is it not..?

We are terrified..if we speak..life into their souls..they may leave..may not like us..unless we buy them designer clothes..cell phones..we do not even need…enabling confusion..hatred..literally selling their souls to the devil..all because someone does not meet our criteria..walks a path that makes ours look dingy..and we feel we should be maybe cursing less..feeding the person on the corner…even letting them into our home…imagine that…

We shake at the person who roars..we are scared they will desert us..and in truth..most have no problem leaving behind..kicking to the curb..another person..making them homeless..making them face hunger..fear on many levels..because we can..we have the power..

We once held the power to move this world to wonders..

We once stood at amazement..at the breathe of a child..the smile of our grandfather as he described a family memory..

We anchored ourselves to our mother’s aprons..and reveled in the fact of her holding us close..protection..and believed there was so much of this world in its darkness…that we could protect them from..and we did…

We placed honor in caring for the weaker in our society..even if the weakness was something shameful..something one could fall into in a heartbeat…

We endured..we held fast..we touched..

Now it is the second by second decision of deciding between the two evils..

Not between right and wrong..good or bad..light or dark..

No..choosing between the lesser..of two evils..

We have fallen prey to thinking this is all real..and hold it close..and slice and dice anyone who speaks different…

Light does not win..hope does not win…

I recently fled..and left 95% of my life behind..in a house…

I did not have a choice..a decision..of what I wanted..what I needed..it was all decided for me..

And as I sit with what is left all about me..I would freely hand it over to you..without a second thought..

For just one second..one moment in time..to see life enter another’s eyes…

To see the desire to take another step…

To provide cool drink..and a simple meal.. an apple crisp..or pie..so they could remember a moment in time..and a small smile would return to their face..

I would hand it over to you..to see children….recognize their mother..

I would give it all up..life..status..things..car..anything one asked…to know..

To know..that we still know how to breath..we know what life is..and we have finally figured out..that evil is smothering us..and we are okay with it…we sit in the abyss of evil so comfortable…so smug..

And life has left us..love has evacuated the building..

And we truly…do not care…

Advertisements

~ by HopeGlenn on August 27, 2012.

2 Responses to “Schism…..Fallacy….”

  1. Gods know. I do so care.

    Like

Leave a Reply

Fill in your details below or click an icon to log in:

WordPress.com Logo

You are commenting using your WordPress.com account. Log Out / Change )

Twitter picture

You are commenting using your Twitter account. Log Out / Change )

Facebook photo

You are commenting using your Facebook account. Log Out / Change )

Google+ photo

You are commenting using your Google+ account. Log Out / Change )

Connecting to %s

 
%d bloggers like this: